Tired, really tired.
God, you know I've tried.
If this doesn't pay off,
then I don't know what am I supposed to do.
To achieve something that everyone else had already achieved.
I am ashamed, I am truly down beaten.
But that's to be left aside, to be ignored, for now.
Maybe I haven't given enough. Maybe.
Everything seems to be the explanation now.
I expect and I see what lies ahead, and it's not pretty.
And yet again, I shouldn't expect because it seems that
my whole life, when I expect a miracle, it never happens.
It will only crumble and tumble like
I haven't put them together at all.

10:25 PM