I have tried countless of times to not poke on my backspace button after I've chained my alphabets together to construct a post with normal human being language. Thing is, sometimes you spend so much time constructing your own little language in your own little space that when it comes to a time when you need to speak human, you are outta words.

I'm guessing that lately, I haven't been much of a sensible person. I wonder, have I been falling asleep so much that I couldn't differentiate between my dreams and my real world happenings? Or did I not reset myself after a night of Disneyland dreams?

2:10 AM

I'll be...

Waiting for someday
Believing in someday
Praying for someday
Longing for someday
Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday

I'll be...

Thinking of someday
Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday
Living for someday
Counting on someday
Knowing that one day...

I will see you




10:06 PM

1:34 AM

sink.knife.into.stomach.twist.it.and.add.salt.while.using.
a.spoon.to.dig.out.both.eyeballs.from.socket.thank.you.

8:47 PM

3:15 AM

You walked too fast ahead you never stop to look.
When you finally stopped and took a step back.
You said damn, this looked so much like it.
You realize that you're at the exact place.
The exact spot where you stood.
Your shoe prints are still stamped on it.
Of course you said bullshyt they ain't my shoe prints.
But the truth remains the truth my friend, you're back.
You used a different way but sorry it still led you back there.
What's funny is that you allow the same hand to lead the way.
That hand that held you throughout your journey,
is in fact the one that gave you the wrong directions before.
I know, this hand promised to not lead you back to your past.
But too bad, promises are meant to be broken.

Jokes on you, cause you fell for the same trick again.

HEEHEE!

3:46 PM

Maybe for once, you felt like you're worth something.
Since the people you have your hopes on can't stop failing you.
Peasant, your whole life, for a moment you're queen of everything.
At the verge of losing all that you've got, you found something.
To get something amazingly awesome by not asking for it.
Even for a short moment, it still tasted like heaven.
The way it was presented to you without any hidden terms and conditions.
It was there for you and just for you and for nothing in return.
Great, is the word to describe it, as the outcome never failed you.

Maybe sometimes you are tired of being the clown.
Making smiles on peoples faces while you're left with your frown.
Yeah, seriously, I gotta admit, you're one hell of a talented clown.
But who the hell are you when you're make up is down?
You did really well but that doesn't mean you deserve a crown.
You're just a phony that walks around with a long ass funny gown.

=)


2:44 AM

Even the brace to keep this in place has removed itself.
It rusted, deteriorated and worn itself off with time.
Though it was just like yesterday that these braces were new.
Somehow, it gave in, it gave up, it does not hold anymore.
The contents were more damaged than ever before.
Coz they relied so much on it and now that their brace is gone.
Contents know no more to sit where they are supposed to.
They are all over the place like ants bursting out from their ant hole.
Like a box of marbles that dropped out from a pair of supportive hands.
Bouncing and rolling all around, don't even know where to begin picking.
Maybe not picking them back up isn't such a bad idea.

It is almost impossible to find another picture to fit perfectly in that frame.
But it is not impossible to find a frame that fits the picture perfectly.

9:33 PM

Inching towards my destination in a snail like pace.
Frustrating. I've never felt like this since high-school.
The ready to go in and die without thinking.
The I don't care it's just some peanut case feeling.
I know I can't afford to lose this ticket.
It's too vital for me to throw it into the dustbin.
Yet, that's exactly what I am doing right now.
And I'm done asking and telling and talking shyt.
Coz deep inside there's always this grim that's hiding away.
I've seen it, I've felt it, hell I know it so well.
Too well.

You stopped smiling.
That's when I know, you're trustable no more.
I won't blame you for any of it.
Coz I know, I'll live.


12:54 AM

So, I got rebellious and jeopardized my studies and went for a movie.
Yes you've guessed it, I went for 2012. Since almost everyone's giving it a 2 thumbs up, I had to.

Anyway, speaking of this movie, well, I kept picturing fake effects but I must say that I am pretty amazed with it. It was almost real. I was convinced.
I could tell that I was convinced cause I swear my palms were sweaty for holding a fist too long throughout the movie, and it was so darn cold in the cinema.
Although, the humans inside really had some bad ass luck on their sides, I didn't care this time.
I assumed that they were supposed to be the eyes and the ears in this movie acting as the main camera showing and telling the story and bringing in some very cliche suspense. Which worked well, though so cliche.

Well, overall, thumbs up from me for 2012. Got me thinking, if this happens, what WILL I do?
What would you do? Better treat your loved ones better you assholes, 2012's nearing. Haha..

OH compared to Jennifer's Body, I didn't wanna say it but I swear I almost killed myself when I walked out from the cinema. That only proved me so right to say, Megan Fox is so overrated, she was selling herself so cheap in this movie. Hot body that comes with a cheap price. It was almost like a cheap porn production. All I gotta say is, she's the man alright ;)









3:03 PM